Skip to main content

Life is an Adventure!

I admit it; 2013 has been the worst year of my life.

I began the year as a husband and father-to-be. I live alone and the ashes of my daughter take up temporary residence in my top dresser drawer.

I like to think I can push myself through things prettying well, but this is different, this is...unyielding. There are times I'm okay around babies and toddlers. Then I have moments where I have to excuse myself from a room because if I don't, I'll shatter into little pieces. I'm trying to be okay with the idea that this is a wound that will never completely heal.

Then came the moment where I finally had to admit that circumstances had gotten the better of me and I had to write my publisher and cancel the two books I promised.

I write this, my final blog entry, and offer my last confession; the events of the past eighteen months almost completely destroyed me. But admitting it is the first step to bouncing back. And not just saying it until you make yourself believe it, or burying the problem so deep down that you can almost forget it exists, but I mean truly dealing with the issue, so you can recover and move on with your life.

I still don't believe that we are put here to suffer, but to be forged. I remember laughing, good times, fun times, reckless times that made for awesome memories, and they keep me going. Life is meant to be lived, not suffered through, nor endured. Life is meant to be experienced, taking at full tilt without worry or fear of the unknown. Time, effort, and patience solve all problems.

The hard times are given to test and forge our resolve, to strengthen us for whatever future awaits us. Hard times are given that we may look back upon the experience and learn, applying the hard-won knowledge to the next hard time. Or to help others through their own, to let them know that they are not alone, that they can and will endure, that they will smile and laugh again.

People suffer every day, far worse than anything most of us have been through. If those people who endure the unimaginable can persevere, then we have no excuses.

I made up my mind a long time ago; I will never stop moving forward. I will never allow anyone to tell me that I cannot do something. I will never be so broken that I cannot heal. I will never lose my ability to laugh and smile and I will never, ever stop believing in the overall goodness of people, no matter how cynical I may appear. Do no harm, but take no shit. Stand up for one another. Love one another. Embrace what makes us different.

I have persevered to the restoration of my driving privileges after ten years of being unable to legally drive. I have made headway into three novels in the Universal Warrior franchise and their teasers have been well-received. I'm co-authoring a sci-fi graphic novel with a good friend and have to write a guest  post on the writing process at someone else's invitation.

I may not have completely bounced back, and it will be a long time before I'm whole again, but I've at least taken the first step. And I'll keep moving forward till I get to to where I want to be in life.

This will be the final blog entry on the Road Home. I can no longer keep to the schedule of blogging once per week, so rather than let things languish, I'm going to take a hiatus from full time blogging to focus on freelancing and the fantasy trilogy I'm writing; Universal Warrior: War Of The Wild.

If you think I'm not doing things behind the scenes, though, you have another thing coming. If you want to be kept in the loop on what's coming (and oh, how there are so very many things coming), sign up here. I'll probably tweak the hades out of this over the coming months, but if you sign up here, you'll know what's coming before the rest of the world does, and it's a good way to get some free stuff, too.

I want to thank each and every one of you for your support and encouragement over the years. Thank you for reading and turning this blog into a success. I will be back, believe that. Life is an adventure. You will be tested, you will be hurt, and you will persevere, and you will get through it because you CAN.

As always, and until next time, thank you for reading.


Popular posts from this blog

The Long Road Home

I will end you tonight. No, wait. That's not where the story starts. The story starts two and a half years before this, when Michelle (referred to as Michelle for legal reasons because SATAN was too heavily trademarked) reached out to me by Facebook. She mentioned that we played the same Facebook game and she wanted to say hi. I had never, in fact, even heard of the Facebook game. But I was freshly broken out of a relationship and she was pretty with a good body so I said "Hurr, okay." Conversation ensues. She tells me we came up in the same place. We did not come up in the same place. We spent one night in San Francisco talking. But I really wanted to sleep with her. So, "Hurr, okay." Fast forward a few months. I've left Missouri for the beautiful Pacific Northwest. I've settled into the ass end of Lynnwood, a suburb of Seattle. The apartment was so bad that the landlord wrote the mold on the wall off as "crayon coloring

America: A True Story About Hatred and Unity

I wanted fast food tonight. That was all. I found myself at Burger King to pick up my wife's order. I was a few cars deep when I spotted the Confederate flag. I surreptitiously snapped a few photos. This was going to be a very different story. When I pull out of Burger King, it turns out there's more than one. In fact, there are four trucks, each flying variations of the flag. I have to go around the front of them to avoid an accident. They're parked right in the middle of the road. As I drive around them, each person in the vehicle makes it a point to ensure I see them. I do. They see me too. When I get to McDonald's (which is in the same lot), I learn that they're not taking debit cards at the moment. Terrific. I wanted chicken nuggets and instead, I get a run-in with the new Confederacy. So I make my way back to Burger King, again appearing in full view of the trucks. I place my order, get it, pay, and pull out. Then one of the

Wave Rocketbook Reviewed

I love writing by hand, and I love notebooks. I'll often devote entire budgets to them and when Officemax has one of their twenty-five cent sales, I'll buy them out. I often draft by hand, finding that the scene comes together more purely when it flows from a pen rather than a keyboard. So when DailyDot advertised a durable new type of notebook that you could use over and over again for the cheap price of twenty-five (thirty after shipping) US Dollars? I'm down. The Wave Rocketbook is meant to be elegant in its design and simple in its execution. The instructions come on the bag itself, and only the pen and notebook are included. The pen feels like any other, so you have to be careful not to mix it into your collection or you will end up marking your notebook with the wrong pen (like I did). The ink is erasable, which is a bonus. A place to put the pen would've been nice, but it clips easily, if not securely, into the ringed binding. The paper is thick and